The Battle: Fear Vs: Faith

This summer I was offered a job at Braeside camp working in the kitchen. I was told that I had to respond as to if I will take the job by May 31st --aka today.  Meanwhile, I have been living at my parents in Collingwood and discovering that I love it hear. I have made some awesome friends here and am helping lead the young adult group. The thought of moving to Braeside to live alone and start all over again makes me sad. So, I have been applying for jobs around Collingwood but doors just keep slamming in my face. I have been wondering what I am doing wrong. I can't even land a job as a camp counselor. I was given an interview for an awesome job in my parent's backyard but they told me that I wouldn't find out if I got it until today or tomorrow. So I have been waiting and praying.


This past week, with the deadline to notify Braeside rapidly approaching, has been a challenging one. I have been wavering between where I should work/live. I didn't want to give up the job at Braeside in the event that I could not find a job here. Last night at church I realized that I have been holding onto the Braeside job as a safety net and that I wanted to go there because I am fearful of the good that could come with staying here. I also recognized that I did not want to make a decision because I am afraid of making a mistake. I have been letting fear rule me.


1 Timothy 1:7 says, "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."


So, I have decided to let go of my safety net and trust God to provide a job. It's so hard to trust God because that fearful voice keeps whispering to me -- but a spirit of fear is not of God. I am choosing to step out in faith and have a little trust in God. Please pray for me that I would not longer be held back by fear but rather that I would live my life with faith. 

The Heavenly Man

I have been reading this book, "The Heavenly Man," and it is wrecking me. Honestly, I don't know if I would be able to handle being persecuted for my faith, to the same degree as this man has done, and still be faithful. Not only that but this man prayed and fasted just to receive a copy of the Bible and then committed to memory. If you want to be challenged in your faith, I highly recommend reading this book!

Home Sweet Home!?!

Dad and I arrived home safely. We stopped in Burlington for a day to spend time with my sisters and their families. Then, we headed to Collingwood and family friends from Texas came to spend the weekend with us. It was really nice to spend time with them. I also started a course on Teaching English as a Second Language which will happen over the weekends this month. Needless to say, I am exhausted. Now, it is time to inaugurate the job hunt.

As a side note: I have seen more snow here in Ontario since being back then I saw all winter in Abbotsford. It's MAY! How does that add up?!

New Adventure

School is out for the season and I am on my way home. Dad flew out for my graduation and to drive home with me. The weather has been crazy and we have driven through rain, wind, and snow. Can you believe it?! I have seen more snow on this journey home then I did all winter in Abbotsford. Here are some pictures so far: