The countdown is on... we leave in 11 days!

I have to be honest in saying that I have avoided writing anything here over the past two weeks because I haven't had any exciting news to share. It started three weeks ago when we were learning some dramas. In one of them I played the part of a crippled person who was limping in pain each day. I felt the pain. I felt the loneliness of the character. Another evening we watched a movie documentary on healing and then we started Holy Spirit week where I felt like I had to start expecting God to heal me. People had crazy visions that matched each other regarding the things holding me back from being healed by God. They prayed for me daily. I felt challenged to start eating different foods in faith. I studied different passages in the Bible and felt like God was telling me that He is healing me. However, instead of having some amazing healing experience I felt the same old symptoms. I kept asking God and continuing to step out in faith. Instead of feeling healed, I ended up with laryngitis. This past week was spiritual warfare week which I thought to be very fitting as I have felt like I have been in a battle. Instead of improving I lost a lot of my energy and got an ear infection. The past couple days I have been really discouraged wondering why God hasn't healed me or if He has healed me and my body is just not getting the message. Today I have decided to stop trying to eat normal food until God clearly shows me otherwise. I am still believing for healing. I know that God is a miracle working God. I know He can heal and He still heals today. I don't doubt this. I just wish I knew why He isn't healing me the way I want to be healed and when I want to be healed...which is probably my problem because that sounds really selfish and demanding when I write it. The Scripture verse that came to my mind as I began to write this blog entry is: " But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33. Time to refocus. Time to just worship God regardless of how I feel and keep believing and asking for a miracle--and wait for Him to do it. 

Please remember me in your prayers particularly for quick restoration of my voice and for healing of this ear infection...and also for healing for the rest of my body to go with it.

P.S. The countdown is on. In a week and a half I will be on my way to the Canary Islands for the outreach portion of the DTS. It's crazy how fast the time has flown by so far. Please pray for vision and unity for our team and that God would lead and direct us and use us in incredible ways to accomplish His will and purpose. :)

Thank you for your prayers!